Annoyance is following me around like
a lost puppy, and misery seems to be a loyal company. Looks like depression has
taken its toll on me and I’m wondering, CAN IT GET ANY WORSE? For some reasons,
I’m no longer bothered about most things that I used to pay a huge amount of
attention to. Circumstances have brought out the “screw everything” side of
me. Now, the girl that gets excited easily over the simple little
pleasures of life, can only be heard saying “look at my bloody bothered face!”
*rolls eyes*
Well, the fact that I’ve gotta be back
to the shit-hole place Kursk in merely four
days, has been bothering me to the core of my very existence. Okay I know it’s
not THAT bad, but seriously, there isn't much to look forward to, is
there? And saying goodbye has not been easy even though it’s not the first
time. It really sucks in epic proportions that summer’s over. Plus, me
being a procrastinator extraordinaire, have not done anything on my to-do list.
So last minute work is gonna screw me up.
And let’s not forget the petty little
things of everyday life that never fails to tick off every cell in my body. Oh
sweet lord, is there no end to people and their infuriating behavior? And of
course, as if it wasn’t enough to be emotionally attacked by the outside world,
my body decides to spice things up by attacking me physically. Screw you
imbalanced hormones! Thanks for nothing. And… Please give a BIG round of
applause to the eyes that just won’t shut at the right times. Looks like
insomnia might be making it into the big list of “Let’s make Pavi’s life hell”.
And l guess “ugly” decided to throw up
on me. Break outs, panda eyes and crappy unmaintained hair can do wonders to
your mood every time you look at the mirror. And me being so good at role
playing, I decided to dress the part. Faded baggy clothes and a sour pucker ,
that pretty much does the job and I’m ready to be hired as the Hogwarts’
mascot; a TROLL! Wow, since when did I get so superficial??! (And oh btw, a
troll isn’t really a Hogwarts’ mascot but you sure do find trolls there).
Okay okay, YES, I’m exaggerating! My
life isn’t really a living hell and I’m clearly blowing things wildly off
proportion. But I’d be lying if I denied that my moods have been pretty
messed up the past couple of days (not the entire summer though). So I
guess I can put the blame on that for this really negative post. I try not to
complain about such things like this, but at times it helps when you get it
out. Oh well, back to La La Land now, prince charming is waiting down the
aisle for me. :) *dozes off on the sofa*
