But I don't wanna choose! I wanna do it all!

Grieving over my current life circumstances. Wasn't it bad enough already that I have to put up with my petty issues of everyday life, and now I have to choose between two of my dreams?? Seriously, I don't need more things to mess with my head, I think I already have enough insecurities and worries to keep me up awake at night. Why? Why do I have to choose between meeting the boy who was all I ever thought about since I was sixteen and my dreams of travelling and having adventures with some particular people? Why finally give me the opportunity to make my dreams come true but in such a way that I have to pick only one. Why does it have to happen at the same time. If it weren't for the time, I would be able to do both. But no, we cant have it all can we? So here I am, sitting here in my room, barely able to enjoy a good episode of Big Bang Theory, because I'm in a dilemma. Do i use my money to go see the Jonas Brothers Live in Russia (probably my once in a life time chance to meet the brothers) which is just for one night only or do I live on my other dream of travelling to Europe and having adventures. Both means so much to me.

I. Can't. Decide. :/